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Online Writings by Anita Endrezze

[The following online writings are taken from Storytellers: Native American Authors Online at Hanksville. Click here to visit Endrezze's page on this site devoted to Native American Storytelling. Specific URLS for each work are included beneath the titles.]

Song for Our Times

I'm the dark water salmon, leaping

from the red-fleshed net of ancient dreams.

I'm the spotted trout,

the spaces between falling water.

I'm the oily beach, the ragged wing of gull and tern,

the dead eye of the river.

I'm the stinking rain in your palm.

I'm the rough-barked tamarack,

the long-leafed willow.

I'm the animal without a face.

I'm the deep-shadowed bear,

the windy-haired child.

I'm the crooked bones with eyes.

I'm the bandy-legged woman

with the third world hunger in your city.

I'm the tall, loose-limbed woman,

I'm the heron with tasseled reeds for bones.

I'm the mud-red salamander,

the small bird of the moon.

I'm the one living under the bridge

of your fairy tale. I'm the warty frog of your tongue.

I'm the gray air of your love songs.

I'm the pitted-skin man at the end of the smokestack.

I'm the hill-breasted woman.

I'm the whitetail deer with a song of cedar

curdled by the parasites in my throat.

I'm the snake that rides wild horses.

I'm the hot-scented fox, the girl with blue sky

charms on her wrist and sunflowers in her hair.

I'm the baby sleeping under the mountain ash.

I'm the hunter polishing his gun,

the boy dancing in his baggy pants and semi-shaved head.

I'm the porcupine your mother warned you about,

the one with switchblade smiles and orange teeth.

I'm the bad-assed coyote sniffing at your sister.

I'm the wild butterflies in your lover's hands.

I'm the salmon he brings to you as a gift.

I'm the basket of sun she gives you one rainy day.

I'm the gangly bachelor button thriving in the ditch,

the summer ending like a long sleep in a slow swinging hammock.

I'm the land that was created from mud and put on turtle's back,

that fell from the sky, that was thrust from the roots,

that was the heart of an Indian. I'm the song

that will never be finished.

Jesus as hopul Woki (Folded Feet)

    Jesus was a Yaqui. He walked from rancheria to rancheria, in the four directions. He wore sandals made out of plant fibers and a straw hat. He crossed the rivers, wading up to his knees in water, and traveled through deserts of thorn bushes and snakes. He was a curer, and possessed seataka, a flower body, that is, one full of spirit power. It is a gift given in the womb.

    One day, Jesus was walking with San Pedro. It was time to eat, but they had no food. Soon, however, they saw a house and Jesus sent San Pedro there to get something to eat. When San Pedro returned, he was gnawing on a chicken leg. 
    "Why does this chicken have only one leg?" Jesus asked his follower.
     "Oh," replied San Pedro, "all the chickens in this part of the country have just one leg." 
    He pointed to a tree in the yard where many chickens were sleeping, standing on one leg, with the other folded up under their feathers. 
    "Look! Just as I told you," said San Pedro. 
    Jesus picked up a rock and threw it. When it hit a chicken, the bird squawked, then stood on both feet. 
    "Oh!" cried San Pedro, "a miracle!" 
    Then he smiled and taking up several small stones, he threw them at the flock. 
    "See," said San Pedro, "I can perform miracles too!"  

    They say that the first Spanish priests came, carrying a cross and the Yaquis approved since they already believed in the importance of the four directions.
    The cross is referred to as Itom Ae Santisima Cruz, or Our Mother Most Holy Cross, but the cross is not female. It is male and wears a robe with rosary, which is made of rolled and dried rose petals. 
    When Jesus was killed, his blood became red roses, flowers that fell to the earth. When Jesus died, the angels took off their crowns. When he died, he was nailed to the cross he had made himself and his feet were folded over. 

(an old story retold in Throwing Fire at the Sun, Water at the Moon, a work in progress. Copyright 1997 Anita Endrezze)

We Came This Way

"I often questioned those people of Sinaloa, especially the oldest and most understanding of the men, and whence they came, and in what period they had populated these lands . . . they passed this way from the continent of Asia, by way of the north, or across a narrow arm of sea, which until now, has not been discovered."  

from : Triumph of Our Holy Faith among the Most Wild and Barbarous Nations, by Father Andres Perez de Ribas, 1617, [well before Bering found the strait named after him.]

We came this way
we came this way
which has not yet been discovered     this way
by a Dane across a narrow arm of mast or sea

this way we came

our skin is red-orange from the sun & wild mulberry juice      our skin
is mysterious, scattered with ice-colored clouds of cottonwood seeds
this way our skin is a continent
journeying over mapless water

this way

we are beautiful     in our ears, long indigo blue loops of cotton
& white pearls, aqua-pink shells     this way
we always hear the sea     & in our noses like green crescent moons:
bright stones     our hair loose & straight as rain

we came

skirted in woven willow, or fibers of maguay, fine cotton      this way
we came naked
or in blue capes, skins of night jaguars & green-eyed stars
this way

we became

animals in the spiral breaths of mountain roars,
this way into the rivers dark-mouthed centers     we came
discovered, discovering thick forests of ebony, brazil
& rosewood where birds can not fly

this way

we heard the alligators dreaming of carving
sky into flesh shapes so we came to ford rivers
with loud talking     this way we are called People Who Shout
it is our way

we came

to our enemies & killed them     this way: with flint knives & spikes embedded
in the ground     with poisoned arrows     with blood spattered war clubs, spears
with men drinking the juice of the mescal plant & dancing
this way we impale our enemies heads on poles     we insult them

this way

everyone fears us so we are safe
this way we live when it floods: we build houses in the trees
dreaming of red stars falling into our hands
this way we enter the water of our souls

we came

to the ocean to harvest sea kelp, pearls     with nets of sisal fiber
we fish this way     there are deer, wild pig, rabbits, iguanas which we hunt
this way; where there is water in the hollow of trees we find them
& break their jaws, stringing them together

this way

we can hunt many hours with fresh meat & later, with our fingers
we probe for small stones in the iguana's stomach     these are good medicine
the hechiceros suck out thorns, sticks or pebbles     it goes this way

we came

to corn, beans, squash,     from the north we came, carrying tobacco
& pieces of coral,     silver in medicine bags, small knots of scalps,
animal or human     we passed this way with our youngest & oldest
from far north     only the Spaniards came from the southeast

they came

with gifts of smallpox & slavery     this way they came
with spotted horses & striped blankets which we wore this way
over the arm which pointed north
when they asked where there were riches of gold or silver     away

that way

we said, go north     there you will find what you seek     far north
across the narrow sea     follow the Red Road into Asia,      go back
far until you come to Spain     go home     that way     go that way
& leave us for we have come this way     this way

we came.

from: Throwing Fire at the Sun, Water at the Moon, a work in progress. Unpublished (on paper)  1997 Anita Endrezze

Lost River 1852/1952 Oregon/California


One hundred years after Captain Jack was gunned down,
unarmed by Indian hunter Ben Wright,
my mother carries me in her arms
north through Modoc country.
Dad drives the pick-up,
his dark forearm resting on the open window,
lava beds on the right,
historical markers on the left,
on a highway paved with bones,
tires singing,
over Indian America.


"Ben Wright told them he would like to hunt Indians,
so [he] got some men that liked to hunt Indians
to go with him. When they all got together
they numbered over one hundred men . . .
They all left Yreka . . . to hunt down the Modoc Indians . . .
Wright traveled all through the Klamath Indian country,
Klamath Indians wherever he could
find them. He went through Goose Lake country,
Paiute Indians wherever
he got the chance . . .

On the south bank of Lost River . . .
Ben Wright looks along his gun barrel;
he turns slowly around to his men
and says: "Boys don't spare the squaws;
get them all!"
The whites shot them
down so fast on the south bank,
they jumped in the river . . .
When they got about halfway across,
the whites on the north bank opened fire
on them. Only five escaped . . .
the citizens [of Yreka] gave Wright a big dance.
He was . . . the mighty Indian Hunter,
Savage Civilizer, Peace Maker, etc."
from Frank Riddle, Modoc survivor.


food for coyotes, etc.
on the banks of Lost River,
on the banks of all the rivers in America
in the America of the Lost.
"Now what shall I do?
Shall I run every time I see white people?"
Captain Jack's father asks. Every Indian asks
this, even those of us whoare half-white.
That's why we're always running
away from ourselves
and falling into rivers
some of us escaping,
into the sights of a gun.


My mother's white. Her milk is sweet.
Her freckled skin looks like flour tortillas.
Our truck lulls me to sleep, subdues me
as we drive through Klamath country,
past every historical marker Dad ignores
determinedly. My mother carries me
over the unmarked killing grounds:
the highways of America.
We never stop. Dad drives.
He drives. We never stop.

Mom speed reads an historical map:
If you are Indian
you are not

Note: The quote about Ben Wright was from the papers of Frank Riddle, a Modoc survivor.

From Lost Rivers, Making Waves Press, England, 1997.  1997 Anita Endrezze

The Girl Who Loved the Sky

Outside the second grade room,
the jacaranda tree blossomed
into purple lanterns, the papery petals
drifted, darkening the windows.
Inside, the room smelled like glue.
The desks were made of yellowed wood,
the tops littered with eraser rubbings,
rulers, and big fat pencils.
Colored chalk meant special days.
The walls were covered with precise
bright tulips and charts with shiny stars
by certain names. There, I learned
how to make butter by shaking a jar
until the pale cream clotted
into one sweet mass. There, I learned
that numbers were fractious beasts
with dens like dim zeros. And there,
I met a blind girl who thought the sky
tasted like cold metal when it rained
and whose eyes were always covered
with the bruised petals of her lids.

She loved the formless sky, defined
only by sounds, or the cool umbrellas
of clouds. On hot, still days
we listened to the sky falling
like chalk dust. We heard the noon
whistle of the pig-mash factory,
smelled the sourness of home-bound men.

I had no father; she had no eyes;
we were best friends. The other girls
drew shaky hopscotch squares
on the dusty asphalt, talked about
pajama parties, weekend cookouts,
and parents who bought sleek-finned cars
Alone, we sat in the canvas swings,
our shoes digging into the sand, then pushing,
until we flew high over their heads,
our hands streaked with red rust
from the chains that kept us safe.

I was born blind, she said, an act of nature.
Sure, I thought, like birds born
without wings, trees without roots.
I didn't understand. The day she moved
I saw the world clearly: the sky
backed away from me like a departing father.
I sat under the jacaranda, catching
the petals in my palm, enclosing them
until my fist was another lantern
hiding a small and bitter flame.

From at the helm of twilight by Anita Endrezze, Broken Moon Press 1992 Anita Endrezze

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